It’s really easy to fall into a depressive episode when you’re forced to stay in the house 24/7. At first, I wasn’t posting on my blog because I was too tired and didn’t have enough time. Now, all I do is sleep and I have endless time on my hands. My only excuse is I haven’t been feeling motivated to do anything. I barely feel like getting out of bed; there’s nothing to do anyway. Thank God for Hulu and Netflix so I can binge watch ridiculous shows like Tiger King (did anyone else eventually forget it was about tigers?). I’ve also spent my time reading books, talking to friends, and taking walks with my dog Lola.
For months now I’ve been reading the book Freedom Summer by Bruce Watson. It’s about the Freedom Summer Project of 1964, when volunteers went to Mississippi to register Black residents to vote. I figured since I’m not doing much else, I might as well finish this book finally. Not too long ago, I also picked up the memoir More Than Enough by Elaine Weltheroth, the second Black editor-in-chief of Teen Vogue. This is a pretty good book as well, although I’m not too far into it. My most recent buy is Queenie, by Candice Carty-Williams. It’ll be my first fiction read in what feels like years. I have the tendency to only read nonfiction books about African-American history. I’m a bit of a Black history nerd.
Other than Tiger King, I’ve binge watched season 2 of All American (can’t wait until the next season!) and The Haunting of Hill House. I’m so glad How to Get Away with Murder is back and Insecure comes back this Sunday. I need to catch up on the films for my Asian Cinema class because I nearly forgot I was still in school this semester. This whole switching to online thing is not the best thing for me.
Despite me being entertained by scrolling through social media, watching TV, and reading books, I still feel down most days. I think the lack of a routine and sitting inside is getting to me. I will be going outside and getting fresh air more often, now that the weather is pretty nice.
I ventured out to my favorite place, Target, to search for activities today and came back with a coloring book and a puzzle. Hopefully these will help me stay “afloat” for a few more days. How have you all been holding up during the lockdowns? Any activity suggestions?
Stay safe and sane during this time!